this is just stuff that might not still be that important to me, but they were hallmark memorable songs that i listened to when i was younger.
my mom used to play this for me and my sister when we were very young. our house was circular around a central staircase and we would run and run and run around the house in circles listening to it
I went to dance lessons as a young girl and we would do warm ups to this song. I didn't know what it was but I would spend the time that it spent playing in some kind of trance feeling an emotion that my 6 year old body could not comprehend. It would make me really uncomfortable, like something about listening to the song or feeling the feeling wasn't allowed. Years later I heard the song playing when I was up in my room and ran downstairs and my mom was playing it out loud on the family computer, which she practically never did.
This was the first song that I bought on iTunes to put on my mp3 player. I had heard the original song on the radio and when I was looking it up to get it, I encountered this remix and a preview. I didn't know what a remix was and I was like this is so fucking badass. Hell yeah.
Would listen to this in bed at night and pretend to have a reason to be sad. Found it online.
It was a really short time in my life, but it felt like an infinity both horizontally and vertically. A lot of the music I listened to really stuck with me. the first time in a while that music sounded like Music again, and the first time that it sounded like. just somehting else, too.
this was the anthem. i listened to this so much that i ended up in chappel roans top 0.05% of spotify fans, and she is like, someone that people stan and shit. youd have to stop the world to stop this feeling. apperently chappel roan is bipolar so idk. i legit felt like i was some kind of main character of a narrative and could go anywhere and do anything. there was a new feeling that was like pure bliss and complete surrender north and south pole shit that just felt incredible. the narrative bro the narrative. i would ride my bike as fast as i could and know in my core that i deserved to die and it straight up did not matter at all and that i was going to go buy a boba tea instead. so freeing
complete self sacrifice, to know you can dissolve and stick and fix something, you're not important, and knowing you can dissolve away is almost blissful. I liked this song before the episode - I used to apply it to an old OC named Toska who was like this personification of mental illness and victim complex where he was forced by another OC to cause pain and strife, scapegoaty.
i've liked this song since I was very young (lapfoxtrax is probably my favorite music artist of all time) but it took on a new meaning. I could just imagine wali and joey getting completely totally lost in each other once they bridged that individuality gap. they wouldnt be able to stop, it would just be over and over again, wawwy doing whatever felt just as completely good as possible all the time. anyone would just completely fold, right? but it wouldnt matter, because that would be "the end" and you wouldnt have to worry anymore. it was just going to be whatever, you had bridged the gap, you weren't alone, you wouldnt be alone ever again
its in the title for this one. i wanted to get in my car and drive
mind numbing, not obsession, but like preclusion. like joey and wali, being two normal people, experiencing something as blissful as self love through fusion and then the white-numbing limb-static feeling of falling apart and all of a sudden feeling half full. maybe permanently. this song is like, bad, but it hurts (physically) to listen to so good. someone like wawwy doesnt want to die. wawwy doesnt want to go to sleep, either
the passing cotton soft jellyfish veil of self awareness. none of these feelings are quite real, right? im having an episode. my pupils are blown out, i dont know who i am. i am never gonna be able to return to a time where i didn't know what this felt like
I listened to this at max volume on my phone for most of high school when I was having a bad time. This was my freak out anthem.
sad out of mind Listened to this alot summer 2019 while i was driving to bogs.I think child me always knew that it didn't want to die or anything but I would listen to this song and think about how Earth was spinning and if I stopped moving it would just instantly leave me behind. I wasn't thinking about the practical physical ramifications. Actually I was and I would get distracted by it. But I was thinking about what if there was another way to stop the Earth I want to get off, other than dying.
I actually fucking hate this song now that I have taste (is that true?) but I listened to this on repeat while trying to talk a childhood friend down from suicide during the 2016 election so now this song is imbued with like some kind of toxic fume. best ost vocaloid guitar zone for cool guys connecticut entire albums extra bonus set section that i dont expect anyone to listen to